Fracix

"I hurt people, I don't want to it's just the way I'm wired, so maybe I deserve to be alone"

Last updated: 08/07/2026
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General

Notice: Certain information might be outdated by weeks because i don't check everything too often, relevant either way)

(basically a huge biography kind of thing dump, a lot of personal shit meant to describe myself)
note: when i quote something it is usually because i found someone else's words very fitting to me- i am just a bisexual male guy
- i tend to get into stupid arguments, be careless, and say things without thought that can offend someone
- if i'm active somewhere or i'm comfortable with someone i like i will share random things with them even if i don't get any response, though i crave getting said response
- I tend to have trouble understanding why something i did was problematic for another person
- I am easily overwhelmed, i break under pressure and certain things can make me cry easily even if i don't feel like i should be crying
- sometimes when just trying to help someone i feel like i sound insulting or intrusive
- getting any sort of recognition or reaction to things i do or share is really important to me
- i can be quite stubborn
- i used to do art since 3rd december 2023 but i kinda fell out of it and i cant get back into it again
- my height is around 5'10 (176-178cm'ish), pretty average here, although I wish i was shorter, would fit me inside better even if i still feel like i look like a bum
- I don't really care about any sort of holidays like christmas, halloween, easter etc. it doesn't appeal to me
- i always feel and felt like i don't fit in or belong anywhere
- i try my best to understand other people's perspective, i think about it a lot, most of the time
- i feel like most of the time I get nothing in return for the effort i put into people and other things, one-way connections really really ick me and i can't see someone who doesn't talk to me as my friend
- i often express my feelings and thoughts to others even when they're unable to understand what i mean
- i can be really bad at explaining things, i will stutter and mumble a lot and it may not be comprehensible or i might just give up and try another methods of communication, but likely just stop talking all together because i failed too much
- i like praising other people i find cool in some way for literally anything, i especially enjoy praising other people's creative pieces of art
- i dislike being an annoyance/disturbance to anyone i am talking to or doing stuff with, in case i am, i don't mean it or i am joking because i am comfortable around that person or group of people
- tell me about my mistakes and faults, please explain them, please just explain things to me
- i love music and i feel like i always need some nice sound in the background or complete silence, something out of the rhythm or too many different sources of sound at once make me very uncomfortable
- i really hate saying things that might be false in any sort of way, i often build my sentences in a way that isn't either confirming or denying anything, I try my best to be truthful and clear but often it leads to being more confusing than anything
- this was written by someone else but i can relate to it a hell ton: "I think people still don't look at games as art nearly enough, even though the experiences they create are very interesting. Whether I am into "thinking" or "philosophy" is an odd question to answer since I don't know how much other people think about certain things. If I had to guess, I try to analyze why things happen more than the average person, but not to some extreme degree. There's simply far too much to life that I believe people would benefit from experiencing - be it knowledge or art." - Rock6Sixes on youtube
- most of the time irl i prefer being alone and even if i wanted to be with someone i don't have people to be with
- i spend a lot of time on discord, i don't really talk in servers, i just talk to 1-4 people but mostly just one person, i have little
- i wish to be able to support others emotionally so they feel better, it is quite difficult to achieve though
- i overthink things a lot, too much, it's in my character
- online i usually communicate purely in english using text and if i really want to i can do voice too, even though my voice and how my microphones capture it isn't the best. i don't like talking in my native tongue
- i often tend to build up curiosity with how i talk, which isn't exactly good
- i'm quite patient but some repeating behaviours and situations can really get on my nerves, i don't show frustration often but i can actually feel it, even if rarely
- i tend to be attention seeking
- if my way of writing confuses you at times please just tell me to elaborate on something it's not an issue
- i appreciate honesty
- i may be sometimes overwhelming, sometimes i just need to be made aware that i need to shut up for a bit
- i tend to get very upset and tell myself i want to die over the mildest of inconveniences
- i tend to take many things too close to heart, taking things very literally
- i like being described by others, but i'm stupid and will be upset if i'm not described in a way i like or understand
- i usually learn from my mistakes very well
- i have been diagnosed with autism at 18 years old, its also probably very likely that i have something like BPD or ADHD
- i don't feel like there are many people like me in the world, i've had several friends tell me that i'm unlike anyone else, very rare and special
- i am very great at analyzing things, i do it all the time when observing things. can aid or cripple my skills in criticizing
- quite soft, lenient and forgiving
- i struggle with loneliness and i desire friends, i lack physical touch
- quite avoidant and socially awkward
- i really like doing photography
- "i need very clear and honest communication especially if i ask about something because i'm terrible at inferring anything"
- sometimes when i have episodes of depression or frustration and such i may not be myself at times and the fracix you're seeing is not acting rationally, you have to recognize that and trust more the fracix that will eventually calm down. don't take anything i say during outbursts for granted
- others tell me i'm smart and clever, i don't know
- when my brain wants to find a solution and solve something but it's hopeless and cant do it, it gets upset
- I have a pretty healthy sleep schedule, in comparison to most people
- i always felt like the odd one out and like there's something off with me, my entire life
- Avoidant, "individual is socially inhibited, feels inadequate, and is oversensitive to criticism. Core issue is an inability to resolve their codependent need for connection with their codependent fear of rejection and/or discomfort/anxiety around others."
- Paranoid, "individual shows a generalized pattern of instability in interpersonal relationships, self-image, and observable emotions, and significant impulsiveness. Core issue is an inability to regulate emotions."
- Borderline, "individual generally tends to interpret the actions of others as threatening; preoccupied with suspiciousness/paranoia. They are stuck between their need for others and their mistrust of others."
- Dependant "individual shows an extreme need to be taken care of that leads to fears of separation, and passive and clinging behavior. Core issue is the need to be parented by others (i.e. avoid growing up / becoming self-sufficient)."
- "I love being alone, but I hate being lonely"
- i require reassurance from people i'm around or talking to
- "unusually self aware"
- if i talk around you or with you a lot and share a lot of things with you, that's when you can tell i'm feeling comfortable with you
- it doesn't take that much to make me upset, annoyed or fed up
- i don't feel content with my physical body
- "sometimes when talking about things, it stresses me the fuck out when people I like have the polar opposite opinion of me"
- "expressing and articulating myself has been very difficult, oftentimes what i want to say doesn't come out at all, communication is a struggle and getting whats in my brain out of my mouth is easier said than done, especially on the fly"
- "ive always struggled with my emotions, sensitivity to certain feelings, situations and senses, and how i understand myself and understand others, it takes me a bit longer to process emotions and information given to me"
- i tend to write very long sentences which are very complicated and might in the end not make sense at all, can you tell
- i associate my friends with fictional characters, colors and species, my brain works basically entirely on correlation
- i experience something called selective mutism, words that i want to say might just not leave my mouth out of stress, fear and any other feelings
- i am quite a picky eater, i have a set amount of foods i usually eat and i don't really try new things much
- i have tendencies to have my attention go many different ways during various activities, i get lost in my mind and stop focusing on what i'm supposed to focus on which is bad

- main fixations throughout my life were space, tanks and firearms. as a teenager i also acquired a very high liking to art and became permanently fixated on it
- its really hard to get me into some specific things
- i've been in two relationships which both i've lost
- I often do things that unintentionally help others and never get a word for it, no thank you, no appreciation, no nothing. I literally and utterly glue things together so i make others feel better, but that goes underappreciated.
- i have a soft spot for animals
- i work impulsively, to do something i need to feel an urge to do it out of nowhere
- i wish to be left alone but i yearn for attention and care all at once
- i am likely hypersexual, i sometimes hate myself for it
- i use loud music to isolate myself from my environment and at times even my mind
- i have huge issues with jealousy and envying others, one of the top things leading to my mood shifts
- i am very self destructive
- i overexaggerate things a lot
- i'm very subconsciously dismissive, it's a big deal and it happens to make me unable to change to be a better person at many things that are quite important
- i think i've experienced a lot of something called "emotional neglect", I feel estranged from my family, if any of them died i wouldn't shed a single tear, i often don't feel loved even if I know I am. i feel empty and numb
- i like level editing in games if its accessible enough to me, i like playing with gimmicks in games, my favorite thing
- i don't really have "favorites" in anything, i CAN NOT answer questions like "what's your favorite X?" (also applies to stuff like "What games do you play?" "What music do you like?" "What movies do you watch?") or any sort of variants of it, it's weird but please understand
- my typing speed varies around 100-120 wpm
- i know basics of html coding, from school
- i use krita for drawing, gimp and paint.net for basic image editing, vlc as a media player (and as a spotify replacement on mobile), sharex for screenshots, flux for reducing eyestrain from my monitor, medal to record my games and librewolf browser to browse the internet
- i'm genuinely terrible at counting, i tend to mess up by 1 or 2 when counting numbers bigger than 10, seriously
- i don't even remember the full english alphabet
- very straight forward and direct, never making things up unless joking
- i dislike being associated with basically any groups, such as game fandoms, games i played, being a furry, my nationality etc. i dont like getting attention JUST because i am one of those things or something. i am just Fracix
- i can be REALLY apathetic when feeling down
- i need to be asked things but most of the time i give very unsatisfying and petty answers
- i experience alot of existential ambivelance, likely because of bpd
- i think i suffer high functioning depression, experiencing all the horrible mental symptons of the depression and some physical but unintentionally masking it all the time, depression itself not impacting my daily life at all besides making me seem more cold which literally no one cares about. i just appear "put together" to people around me irl for some reason even though im in shambles at all times.
- i fear not knowing what others expect of me
- i often have issues initiating things with people, i may want to play something with someone but i really rather that they ask me first and that they just read my mind and know what game i would prefer even though i didn't decide on anything yet. etc.
- i have great situational awareness

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i hope you enjoyed reading to know more about me... or something...
( i appreciate it <3 )